34 Weeks

Well, Delilah is still in there. I am really all done now. I never thought I would make it this far and I need her out now!


The contractions have become alot more painful and constant (every five minutes) and miserable again the last few days. I have been doing well on the contractions and now I am not sure this is going to be very good for Delilah if I contract all day everyday for the next four weeks before the stitch comes out. Seems to me so much contracting for so long would be hard on her. These of course are going to be questions for the doc.


So today I am allowed more privileges like going out for a short trip each day. Of course, if it makes my contractions horrible, it may not be fun :( My stitch is coming out on September 22nd at 8 am. Only 26 more days to that. Then at least the contractions can just dialate me if they want to :)


We got our crib in and set up! Greg's mom and stepdad got it for us and brought it over and helped Greg set it up. I was soooo excited! Then, half an hour later I was crying because I feel like having furniture moved in for her is going to "jinx" me and something will go wrong. I do have to say that I have had a few days of major anxiety since the crib came. I don't have to worry about preterm labor anymore, so now I am concerned some other thing will happen that will keep us from bringing her home. I know that no one wants to hear this and would rather I just "not think that way" or "stop worrying", but that is not going to happen. I will be afraid of my body hurting her in some way until she is out and crying. Part of this is that I realized for 100% sure that there can not and will not ever be another pregnancy after this. I can never go through something like this again. I just can't tolerate the fear and physical difficulty and danger of losing the baby and fear of harming her with all the medications ever again. So now alot is riding on her coming home. She is our only chance at our own child and I couldn't bear it if something happened now.


So, now you know how I have been for a few days. But, at any rate, the crib is really cute! Here is a belly pic and a pic of the new crib.

33 Weeks!!

So we are 33 weeks! I found out yesterday that if my stitch will continue to hold they are not going to remove it until 37 weeks and 5 days! FIVE MORE DAYS!!!! I CAN'T TAKE FIVE MORE DAYS!!!

Okay, so that said, Dr. Argeles wants to do the removal and he is on vacation the week before. He is on vacation everytime I need him here!

So, here are some pictures of the nursery. The carpet came today.

And here are some pictures of my belly.....

Almost 33 weeks

33 Weeks!

She will be here soon... not much longer!

32 Weeks

We are 32 weeks! This is a big milestone! Only five more weeks until my stitch comes out. I hope that they go quickly.

I have been able to start sitting up a little more now that I am further along. So I am typing this entry with two hands sitting up like a real person again. Feels weird, but I haven't forgotten how to type in the last two months, so that is good.

Greg's mom bought Delilah's crib today and we got a mobile from Pastor Dave and Betty that is soooo cute! I have gotten some cute outfits from my sister too. Greg is painting some in the room and getting ready for carpet to go in next week. Baby Dee is going to be spoiled rotten, that's for sure :)

I had an appointment yesterday and still looked good, so we should be able to make it to 34 weeks and beyond. They will probably have to induce me at 41 weeks at this rate. I hope she falls out as soon as they cut the stitch. I am sure I will have no such luck... I will probably be in labor for days!

31 Weeks!

So we are 31 weeks :) i have been struggling a little mentally and emotionally on and off nowadays. today is a good day emotionally. i am really getting very weak and sick feeling physically. i can't wait for Delilah to be born so i can start feeling good again!

Delilah's room is going to start getting paint tomorrow! it is going to be so cute in there. hopefully i will get the digital camera i would like ordered this week so i can post some pictures of her room and my belly. i meant to order it when i hit 24 weeks, but things got out of hand about then and i never ordered it.

i had a doctor's appointment yesterday and things looked great. so much so that i am again left wondering why we had to go through the whole hospital ordeal at all the other week. the doc said as long as i don't have preterm labor that he thinks the stitch could make it to 37 weeks! i am gonna keep hoping for that. when i was hospitalized this last time and thought we were going to have her i heard someone in a room near ours deliver a baby and heard it crying really loud. i was so upset because i knew if Delilah were born at 29 weeks she wouldn't come out screaming nice and loud. i just really dreamed of delivering a full term, screaming baby that could stay with us and not go to the NICU. i was pretty sure we had lost that possibility, but now it seems possible again :)